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Date: 2020-10-14 08:07 am (UTC)
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Aaron cracks the door open enough to allow those rotting, grasping hands through, and when they begin ineffectually grabbing at him and pulling at his clothes, K has to consciously quell the impulse to move in to protect him. They have a plan and Aaron clearly knows what he's doing, acting now would likely only put them both at risk. And so he waits, anxiously, watching the practised way Aaron dispatches that first walker without hesitation. Judging by how easily the hammer penetrates the rotting mess of its skull, these creatures must be deceptively fragile. But he's no fool; he isn't going to underestimate the threat they pose.

The semi-darkness doesn't appear to hinder K in any way, nor the stark contrast between it and the bright flares of light that are filtering in. He takes in their new surroundings with a glance, noting what he assumes will be their ultimate exit, but his focus largely remains on the walkers and Aaron, still taking his cues from the other man. So far, so good.

"I'm sure," he confirms as his gaze falls on the pair of walkers, and he takes advantage of having time enough to really get a good look at them and size them up.

He couldn't have anticipated the way pity would twist in his gut at the sight of the creatures feebly struggling, straining to reach for them. He can tell they used to be human. Probably had their own families, friends, people they cared about and who cared about them. What an ignoble end to a life — being stripped of all dignity, of everything that made them a person, and reduced to a mindless base instinct to feed on living flesh. And how strange it is, feeling this sense of empathy for beings who, in life, may have likely held as little regard for him as the humans in his own world do. The humans who claim androids are incapable of experiencing genuine emotions...

Putting walkers down seems like a kindness, more than anything, and that thought is what makes him deviate from Aaron's advice, opting to use the hammer instead of crushing the walkers' skulls beneath his boot. It just seems — better, in a way that's difficult to define right now.

The strikes delivered from his own hammer are as neatly precise as he can manage while keeping the splatter to a minimum, without prolonging the final death process any more than it needs to be, and he obliges Aaron's warning by shielding his face with his free arm. It's enough. He remains mostly free of gore, and the walkers have ceased their terrible noises and struggling, lying still now. K rises from his crouch and stands unmoving for several moments, staring at the creatures, then finally lifts his widened eyes to Aaron's face and offers him a vaguely apologetic look, hoping he won't be angry. There's also a degree of wariness in the subtle way K's bracing himself, as though expecting to have to weather that anger. But it isn't personal. It's simply the result of being conditioned to expect being treated a certain way by humans, particularly when he's failed to satisfy them in any way.

Shaking off the clinging clumps and strings of gore from the hammer, he releases the breath he'd been holding with an inaudible sigh and looks down at himself. It's far from the first time he's extinguished a life, but... he's never done so of his own volition before. Death has only ever occurred while under direct orders, with the compulsion inherent in his programming leaving him no choice in the matter. A machine carrying out its duties. The experience of killing his first walkers has left him a bit off-kilter, but he doesn't want to dwell on it. Some fresh air would certainly be welcome right about now.

"I don't hear any others," he says, his voice seeming loud in the silence, and he uses the hammer to gesture toward the trio of walkers. "Are we going to leave them there?" Because he's willing to help arrange the corpses if need be.

Date: 2020-11-04 01:25 am (UTC)
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The comment is met with an almost startled look that quickly dissolves into K's customary guarded expression that doesn't give much away, though that forced neutrality is in itself a fair indication that a nerve may've been struck. He looks away a moment later, focusing on the tasks at hand instead and surveying the area that they'll be blocking off.

"Because androids are unfeeling machines, and only humans are capable of empathy?" That's what humans have always chosen to believe, anyway. And if there's any censure in his voice, it's at least well concealed beneath the dry sarcasm; playing it all off like a joke, as though the words can't hurt him (despite the fact they obviously had). After everything Aaron has said to him, and how he's treated him, he'd let himself believe that Aaron is truly different from every other human he's encountered in his life — and he clearly still is in some significant ways, but evidently even he might harbour some innate prejudice about androids, despite the technology not existing in his own world yet. Maybe it's just human nature to feel this way about them.

But the remark causes a subtle shift in K — he's a little more subdued afterward, and no longer meets Aaron's eyes. Attempting to protect himself against an emotional wound he can barely understand. He's endured exceptionally terrible treatment every day of his life simply for being what he is, why do a few insensitive words now bother him this much? It's irrational. He's also thinking about what Aaron followed it up with, about taking down little kids, and the implications of everything that was left unsaid... His world hasn't experienced an apocalypse of the zombie persuasion, but people there have already been similarly hardened, their humanity eroded to the point of embracing the slavery of sentient beings on a world-wide scale.

The pack is easily caught but he decides against removing his coat (nor the sweater or layers of undershirts he wears beneath it). Not only because extreme temperatures in either direction don't affect him as they would a human, but because he also feels safer keeping his few possessions on him. In case. He'd hate to have to leave behind his only coat if something happens and he's forced to escape on his own, if this community with supplies they'll freely give a stranger really is too good to be true. But he does fish out the nails as he's instructed to, and willingly assists with arranging and securing the barricade, knowing that, even on his own, he should be able to get back through when he needs to. In the meantime, their precautions should hopefully prevent any of the cross-world contamination that Aaron's concerned about.

And with that preliminary glance through the door at the world beyond, he isn't sure what he's seeing at first. He understands the concept of what a forest is, but they've long since gone extinct in his world, at least on Earth; reading about them couldn't have prepared him for the reality of experiencing one in person.

Pushing past the door, he can't help but stare in open — almost uncomprehending — wonder at the natural, living world around them. He never knew that many shades of green could even exist. Craning back his head, his eyes trail up the trunks of trees, and he spends a long moment contemplating the glimpses through the canopy of a clear blue sky that he's never seen before. Dense pollution combined with nuclear winter keep the sky of his world's Los Angeles shrouded in a perpetual gloomy haze that the sun can never fully penetrate. This new world is remarkable to him, and it's nearly too much to take in all at once, though he seems to be trying to as he slowly turns in a full circle, still staring in fascination at everything. When he finally comes back to himself a bit, he realises he's still holding the pack and promptly offers it back. Then, recalling how Aaron had appeared to struggle with it before, stows his hammer and holds the pack by both straps instead, making it easier for Aaron to just slip his arms through them and shrug it back on. A small gesture, but it feels good being able to offer help.

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